Day 2: Master Cleanse (PM)

It's official...you can now add cheeseburger and fries, chicken strip sub, nacho grande, and pepperoni mushroom pizza to my list of cravings. Working at the pizza parlor tonight was one of the hardest things...no ice cream sampling, no munching on spare fries, making burgers and subs, smelling the aromas of fatty fried foods...it was torture, but I stayed strong.

The whole time I had a devil Katie and an angel Katie on opposing shoulders whispering to me that "it's only 1 french fry." "NO. One is still something and that means you fail if you do it." It was a 4 hour argument that angel Katie won...but it was an epic fight.

Now that I'm home, and I have finished all but a few pulpy ounces of my ration of lemonade today, I'm pretty proud of myself. I had some fresh fruits and veggies for dinner before going to work, but it really didn't stick with me for long before feeling hungry again. And by feeling hungry, I mean 50% was my brain telling me I want to eat, and 50% was my stomach actually feeling empty.

Blogging about the experience is also a big help because it's making me accountable for my actions. Working around food is so tough and knowing that if I blow it, I'll have to come home and face the blog and type it out...which means I can't deny what I did. It's also a huge help that the food in the house is out of sight and heavily guarded by masking tape and threatening words like "don't even think about it...fatty" and "you open this cupboard and you're a failure."

So today I have found a system for ingesting the ingredients that doesn't taste so rotten, and I have crossed a huge self control barrier. My stomach is still feeling empty, but I'm hoping a good night sleep will help.